I don't wanna die. So much left, I haven't done, I...don't want to hurt anyone if I have to leave...I don't know how people do it. How when that doctor comes in all grim faced and tells them that they've only got so much time left, I don't know how they smile at the doctor and continue on. I'm not a fighter, I've never been a fighter, I'm weak and I'm afraid this is a battle I'm going to lose.
I can't, I don't know if I could go through the day knowing that I only had this much time left. I'm so sorry, I wish I had been a better person, I have more regrets than I wish I did. I haven't gotten to do anything...This puts things into perspective, those people with cancer, those survivors, who every day had to go through treatment, God bless your soul, God bless you for your courage.
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