"No way."

"Yeah, so way."

"No, nooo, there's no way."

Bree quirked an eyebrow,(I still haven't been able to master that yet! :O) and it was then I knew it was on. Like one famous and very smart person said, it was on like white on rice!

"Hey, Lexa! Count us off," I called to Lexa who was trying to hide her snickers. Haha, she was failing ridiculously.

"You guys, this is SO not going to end well-"

I gave her a look, the one that said I really respect your opinion but right now I just want you to shut your trap.

"Yeeah, okay, fine, but no whining when you lose miserably!" Lexa said before rolling her eyes and starting the countdown.

I gave my best game face to Bree and I saw her doing the same. Only her game face kind of made her look kind of constipated and I'm sure that's how my face looked and honestly, I tried to keep a straight face. I really did.

"You guys ready? 3-"

"HAHAHAHA!"

"BWAHAHAH!"

I'm not exactly sure which one of us burst out laughing first but we ended up on the concrete sidewalk in fits of giggles with Lexa staring at us like we were insane...did I mention she does that a lot?

I shook off the giggles and pushed Bree in the shoulder. She poked my forehead. No, no, now it was really on like time on a clock. Hehe, that was lame but whatever!

So this time, for real, we got into ready position and this time we made sure to not bother with the "game faces" but I couldn't help but glance slyly at her out of the corner of my eye. I stifled a snicker, which came out sort of halfway making me sound like I was choking.

Trust me, she looked ridiculous, but in a good way...her tongue was sticking out and she was really concentrating, like she was trying to deactivate a bomb that would blow up the entire universe and she had exactly 10 seconds to do so. Seriously, a race to the stop sign was not as serious as she was making it out to be.

"Ready, guys? This time, try, seriously!" Lexa called giving us another one of her disapproving looks, gosh she looked just like my mom right then, "Ready...set...."

Long pause that was completely unncessecary that caused both Bree and I to look back to see what's with the holdup.

Lexa was smirking, "Go."

Dang, so I took off.

Or at least that's what I intended to do. I tripped. Fell flat on my face and literally kissed the sidewalk and let me tell you, sidewalk tastes nasty!

I looked up and saw Bree's short brown hair fluttering in the wind like a banner. The little cheater tripped me!

"Hey! Get back here! You cheated!!!"

She didn't stop.

So I gave chase.

"Cheater! Cheater! Pumpkin eater! I demand a rematch!"

Lexa now had caught up to us and was high-fiving Bree. Not cool, you're not suppose to applaud cheating!

"Hey! Are you guys listening?! Rematch!"

They looked at me with mischievous smiles and a twinkle in their eye.

"Why Lexa, I think Rayne needs a lesson in humility."

"Yes, she needs to learn to be a gracious, LOSER!"

They burst into laughter and even though I lost, which I totally wouldn't have if the race was fair, I joined in because they were my best friends and it was really kind of funny. Gosh friends were the greatest.

Thanks God, for blessing me with these friends who are probably more like my sisters than anything. :)

I'm not sure why I have this blog, it's kind of stupid. I had actually put up this blog so I could I guess record my high school experience but...so far it stinks and I'm not sure that when I reread all of this later I'll want to relive all the bad experiences of my life. And I know that's really depressing but I had a revelation of sorts today.

I've been really naive. Even though I nag and brag about how people can be cruel I truly hadn't realized how cruel. Not until today. Now...now I know that when we are pressed down to the ends of our tank and going on desperate we'll say a lot of things, we'll lie, we'll say anything to look like the victim, we'll say anything so that it's not our fault.

So, I...I'm not sure how to word this. I got into an accident. It was terrible. I can't get the image out of my mind. All I can see is this car coming straight at me and then ju the realization that I had been hit. I was in an accident. I...remember being so confused...did it really just happen?

Right now, it's been 4 hours since the accident, it took at least an hour for the cops to get there. Or rather, cop. It was when I was driving home from school...I'm not sure whether I'm in shock or simply depressed. I mean I cried already, and I still want to cry but...

I couldn't drive home. I was so petrified I couldn't drive my car home. So my mom, the angel that she is, drove me home and then went back to get her car.

Did I mention the whole driver's door is completely trashed, yeah the guy rammed me in the side.

But not according to him.

I had given him the benefit of the doubt, honestly, I hadn't even thought to truly blamed him. I just wanted the incident to be over. But no, he had to bring in "his friends" and really it just pissed me off that was lying about the "accident".

I wasn't going to blame him but now, now I'm pissed. I wish the guy was here right now so I could slap the idiot. I hope God smites him. Okay, I'm sorry that wasn't very Christian-like, I just, justice deserves to be served and I hope, my only hope right now, is the insurance company. If somehow we can get that biscuit-head to pay full for my car, then the world just might be right again....

I think...I think I won't be able to drive a car again. I'm....terrified to drive again. I don't...I don't want that to happen again. And I know that's cowardly but I'm scared. Okay, I'm still just a kid and I"m terrified out of my mind.

What if it happens again?

I...regret the fact that somehow we've so advanced and stopped walking everywhere because I really don't mind walking everywhere but my parents wouldn't let me.

Speaking of my parents, I wish I didn't have any right now because now is the time where they fully utilize that whole" we yell at you because we care" thing which to me is really stupid because IT WASN'T MY FAULT!

I don't know what to do. I don't even know if I'm going to keep up with this blog anymore. I'm starting to realize it's really stupid. and depressing. Boo, down with the world.. I should be grateful, I now that. But today I realized that knowing something is a completely different thing then actually "KNOWING" something.

Le sigh.

Is is naive of me to believe in happily ever after? In that one person out there who's my one and only person that completes me?
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Sigh, with the way my life is going, I think I might just end up a nun...not that there's anything wrong with a nun, just...it's...I REALLY want the fairy tale ending with THE guy...shallow of me? Maybe, but a girl can dream, right?
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Haha, I feel as if I'm going insane. I don't even know what's happened to my mind, I get all these random thoughts about nothing and everything and I just don't even make any sense anymore.
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Anyways, back to the whole perfect soul-mate person thing...does it exist? I truly hope so. I wish I could say that I've met someone who's married that other half and ended up with Cinderalla's ending but...I haven't. Which is really sad especially with the whole percentage of divorce people going up, at least in America it has...darn we were doing so well when we started as a country, you know when marriage used to be a sacred promise between two people, a God sent covenant between two souls joined into one? What happened to the divinity of marriage?
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It's been sullied and I truly hope that's not how it is everywhere else in the world...It's not right how much we've fallen. I have this terrible feeling about the Once Beautiful America that was founded on God, I have a feeling we're spinning down a spiral of sin and I really don't think we'll be able to pull ourselves out, not this time, it seems we're in too deep.
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Salad, that was really depressing. Sooo, on a happier note, for all those people who are out there and have found the keeper to your heart, don't let go, hang on if you've got true love in your hands, because it's beautiful and righteous once in the palm of your hands but once gone, it's misery. Sigh, that's still depressing, at least for me...
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Sooooooooo, he's gotta be out there...he's just gotta be! I have hope and as long as I have that, well the possibilities are endless, right? Haha, yeah.

If there was one wish, one thing I could have in the world right now this moment it would be a CURE FOR HUMAN STUPIDITY. Really, if we could somehow rid of the moronic, idiotic, absolutely STUPID stupidity that reigns ever so powerfully over us humans I think us humans might actually have a chance.
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Le sigh. It's been one of those days. Which is just my luck because today's Friday the thirteenth and nothing seems to be going right.
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What bugs me the most though is when I get so mad, the only thing I can do is CRY. Gosh, it's a stupid reflex and I freaking HATE it. I just have so much anger right now, I don't know what to do...
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And now I'm crying like a big fat baby. I am so sick of being so pathetic. Why can't I just control these stupid emotions?

So, life as we know it...good, bad, sad, mad, quiet moments like this where I am just so tired, not just physically but of everything and everyone, I just don't know.
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I wish I had a flying carpet so I could fly to Antarctica...or maybe Australia. Just a place where I can start over, have a new adventure, be a different person.
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Gosh, I think I'm bipolar. No, seriously, one day I'm so freaking happy you'd think I was on drugs or something. Then the next I'm so depressed I feel like gouging my eyes out...ew, now that I typed that, it sounds really gross.
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Dude, why am I so freaking messed up???
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Heh, actually I think we're all a little psycho...or maybe it's just me. I don't know anymore. But good news, I just finished chatting with my cousin, I haven't seen her in two years. She's now married and living the fairytale life with mr. prince charming...no seriously the guy has the blond hair and the sparkling eyes and to top it off he has an accent.
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It gives me hope. Or maybe that's just the hopeless romantic side of me talking. Babbling. Dunno. I'm kind of sad right now, feeling kind of hopeless, but then there's another part of me telling me to get off my butt and DO something, but I dunno what.
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I blame it on the fact that I'm a girl. And everyone knows girls are emotional, sometimes irrationally so.
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So pip pip la doodly doo...

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So awesome news! Last time while I was freaking out about school being back and all that stress, I prayed. And guess what????????
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HE DID IT! HE ANSWERED MY PRAYERS!!!
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MY FRIEND DOESN'T HAVE LUNCH WITH ME ANYMORE!!!
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Okay, that sounded bad, but truth is if I had lunch with her then I wouldn't be able to spread my wings! I wouldn't be able to go around and not feel bad about sitting with other people. Heck if I sound conceited I don't care! I can finally try to get up the courage and meet new people~! Haha, that's one of my new year's resolutions! Be more social-able! Usually when people have computer "alter-egos" they're more social-able online but dude, I can't, it's weird, I'm so socially awkward, it's hilarious how awkward I am. Le sigh, whoever out there doubted that God exist well I say, have you ever tried?
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Have you ever given Him a chance? Have you ever actually let Him into your life?
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Hmm??? Maybe not, maybe so, God exists. And it's not just because He answered my prayer, it's because it's been proven over and over and over again, but some people just stick with ignorance...
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God bless everyone, go live your life. Accept Jesus. God loves you. Thank the good Almighty God for for all you have. Heck, for those who've never heard of Jesus or God. Just talk to Him. It don't matter where. He's always listening!!
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Dude, God, you the man.