I'm drifting right now in limbo. I'm stuck in between the point of not caring anymore. Everything has taken a turn to the gray and bleak and there just seems to be no reason for anything. I mean it does all amount to nothing, it even says in the Bible everything we do on earth in Ecclesiastes(probably misspelled... never mind, there's word check or whatever that's called) is worthless. I don't even know why I bother anymore, it just makes me stressed out.
Everything from doing well in school, doing bad things, worrying, living, it's...so pointless. Heh, wow I sound depressed...but really all that hooey about love and life and adventure, the glamour fades eventually and you're left with a broken doll that's just going through the motions just because.
...and I hate that. I hate that everything's become so pointless, I hate that I've let myself drift so far away from the goal God had set before me, I hate that I can't seem to do anything right or even want to do anything, anymore. I hate how whiny I am, I just have so much hatred right now and I'm confused at whether it's at the world or myself. 
I'm tired. I'm so sick of everything. I want my life with God back. I want that state of not caring about stupid worldly things and worry about what God wants me to do. I'm just so tired.
God, please, hear my plea. Help me.
...I just realized I didn't put any smiles in between paragraphs...but honestly I can't force myself to do that right now, it'd be stupid because I don't believe I can smile right now, not when I can't even frown but can only stare blankly doing nothing.